neonkomi

I was wondering why it feels so hard to blog right now. I think writing should make you feel that when you're opening your soul a little, it's safe to share. The problem for me right now is to know when I cross the line between sharing and over-sharing. I often feel like as soon as I have an idea there immediately is another voice that tells me nobody cares. That it's not good enough or that I am embarrassing myself. I know this is a big problem for me, this idea of shame, but more importantly of self-induced shame. Being responsible for opening up, in search of fellow humans feeling similar, only to be met with people who mock what I do. When did that last happen, I wonder? I don't think it's happened for my art actually, I don't remember people coming to tell me what I did was rubbish, at least not directly. Not since highschool anyway. Maybe the failed comics competitions the past few years are the only culprits there, or the fact that I struggled...